This might be my most random post yet, but it struck me the other day how something so random can become sentimental. The other night Ben was taking Colter on a run and I decided to tag along on my bike. Without hesitating, I slipped on my pair of grey flats without even contemplating whether it was a good shoe choice until Ben looked down and asked, "are you really wearing those?" I looked down at my well loved shoes and quickly replied, "of course!" As I was staring at my shoes I noticed an old crusty spit up stain that has permanently left its mark and I realized just how much these shoes have been through in the past 6 months.
I wore these shoes the day we walked out of the hospital with our most precious cargo. They were on my feet as we walked those hallways wondering how in the world we were going to figure out how to parent this baby, whether germs in the air would get through the blanket covering his car seat, and whether my body would ever feel like I didn't just go horseback riding for 2 weeks without dismounting.
These shoes were with me as we spent those first few weeks going to the doctors seemingly every day for different appointments. They were with me as I wept in the back seat coming back from one of those doctor appointments thinking that I wasn't good enough to be Colter's mom.
I put many miles on these shoes during my trips to downtown Edmonds where a 1 hour play date with friends would turn into 5 or 6 because he slept so well in the ergo and I didn't want to go home.
I wore these shoes to many doctor appointments trying to figure out Colter's reflux. They got worn even more as I walked up and down the stairs trying to calm him down during the days he just wouldn't stop crying.
These shoes were with me when Colter made the most amazing change and became more and more content. I wore these as we made our first of many enjoyable walks in the stroller together, and the first of many car rides where my arm wasn't numb from giggling the car seat as he screamed in the back seat.
I wear these shoes everywhere. They fit perfectly on my feet and feel just right. And that is why even though I have many pairs of shoes to choose from, on almost any day you can find me wearing my trusty flats.
2 comments:
Well, first of all, very cute shoes.
And what a beautifully written post. You could win something with this piece.
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Oh boy. I loved hearing your heart. I completely know this. Trusty comfortable shoes walking with you through all the days. What a precious journey you have been on and look at you now. A stronger women who loves completely and could write her own book on babies. Just do whatever you need to do, get advice when needed and know this shall pass way too fast. You are blessed.
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